⛈ July Check-in: Health & Victimhood

Honestly, things have been crazy. In May/June, I really struggled mentally, emotionally, and physically.  

⛈ Health Challenges:

I never would have thought that I would struggle with chronic pain, but I have. Leading up to my surgery for the removal of my ovarian dermoid cyst in April 2024,  I was in pain and popping pills almost every single day, couldn’t lift anything, and struggled with bad fatigue. 

The only thing exciting about my ovarian surgery was the idea of pain relief. Sounds ironic, right? Having a painful surgery to remove chronic pain 😭.

👀 However, I didn’t expect my PCOS to flare up, imitating the same pain I was in before the surgery. Nor did I expect fatigue, emotional imbalances, and so much brain fog. 

So, I spent May and early June – Angry. Depressed. And like a victim. 

• Angry – I still couldn’t wear the jeans I love so much (still can’t)

• Depressed – because I couldn’t wear the clothes that made me feel confident. 

• Like a victim – because it felt like my life was spinning and things were out of control.

Overnight, it felt like the miracle of God saving my ovaries turned into a burden, fear, and so much insecurity. I literally just spent time crying, feeling lost, and feeling ugly. 

😭 It felt like God had done so much. He healed my PCOS symptoms in 2023 for it all to come crumbling down in 2024.

⛅️Overcoming Victimhood

But in mid-June,  I decided I was done with being a victim of my circumstances. Obviously, God wants to teach me something here, or I wouldn’t be here. 

👏🏾I decided that I would not be captive to something I could not change because the reality is that whether my PCOS is flaring or not:

• I have periods that I didn’t have in 2022.

• I have ovaries that I almost lost twice.

• I have evidence that God heals and restores PCOS (ME!!)! 

💐More than that, I realized that the love of my jeans was a result of God teaching me how to style them. SOOO -if God did it before, he can do it again. 

The devil tried to tell me that God was a one-trick pony and that I was stuck.

You can count on the consistency of God!

☀️Victory!

But I am here to report that I recently bought an outfit I loved, I’m no longer experiencing chronic pain, and I have a plan to knock these PCOS symptoms out once again. 

✨Listen, God is the same as yesterday and forever more. Therefore, if we decide to embrace where we are, God can do so much more. 

The devil is a liar AND you are not a victim. This is just an opportunity for God to teach you another lesson and for you to get another victory lap.

You have to decide to embrace this season.

👀 It’s Your Turn

SO HERE’S MY QUESTION FOR YOU: What are you fighting that God wants you to embrace?

HERE’S MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Lord Jesus, your daughter needs you. Right now, the devil is trying to convince her that she is a victim of her circumstances. 

But right, I declare by your power that she is healed from every lie of the enemy, every infirmity, and every false status of victimhood. Open her eyes and heart to you, Jesus. In the mighty name of Jesus, I pray Amen.